Blog #6

     I feel tired..like really, Really tired. And I shouldn't feel tired. Ive slept for almost 48 hours straight and I could still crawl up in my bed and fall asleep instantly. If I sleep any longer I'll probably go in to a sleeping coma. 

     My medicine is what gives me insomnia. I never thought someone could miss something as simple as sleep this much.  When I take my medicine everything's fine.. until it's time to sleep. I stay up everyday until almost 4, sometimes 5, and then I wake up for class at either 9 or 10. It wasn't as noticeable at first but the past couple weeks have been miserable. I've been skipping my morning classes way too much and when I do go it's because I've barely forced myself out of bed. Every morning I've been thinking, "why do I do this to myself?" and every night I remember it's because I can't force myself to sleep. I've never felt more stressed and overwhelmed in my life. Ive been overly sensitive and emotional. Oh and I studied 3 times harder for my second calculus exam and got 20% lower of a grade than my first exam. Sleep deprivation can be a miserable thing. 

     I'm only glad I figured what it was that was causing all this because I was to the point of wanting to drop out. I only hope that this weekend regenerated me for these next couple weeks. I plan on finding a different medication because I cannot and will not live like that any longer. I just hope I can find it soon.